I feel like I’m always in healing mode. The subject came in as a text as I sat in the doctors office. This entire visit made me smile and just truly be thankful. I realize that so many great things are coming, but those bad things have to also come.
I am healed when I laugh. I am healed when I cry. I am healed when I sit in silence. I am healed when I write. I am healed when I walk my dog. I am healed when I pray. I am healed when I exercise.
I have an ugly scar on my leg that I managed to get two years ago. It’s my battle scar. This scar should have been stitched up when I initially hurt myself, but I was too “strong” to go to the hospital to get stitches. Oh how it hurt! It hurt so bad and honestly I don’t know if it was one month, two months, or three months, but I took care of it daily. I wrapped it, cleaned it, unwrapped it, let it breathe, avoided water on it and eventually it healed. I never exactly knew when it would heal, but one day I was able to take a shower without avoiding to get water on that right leg. And while it left a pretty ugly scar, it’s symbolic of how I just always look at life.
Things will hurt us. Things will perplex us. We might question it. Or we might even avoid going to receive help because we are “strong” and that’s ok because in time everything heals. Today during my doctors appointment, I smiled at the results after seeing I was back to my healthy self and I realized in time things will happen the way they should and they did….
With every bad, there is always good! My tab was picked up because I took time to help someone when I saw they needed help, a beautiful text was sent because “..you never know the impact you truly make in lives” it read. And I’m satisfied with this and just like I did with my leg, I will not shed a tear. I cleaned it with alcohol, peroxide, and used ointment prior to wrapping it and I never screamed even though that alcohol stung. I handled myself with care and I took time daily to give it attention and I plan to do that with self!
Today and everyday I promise myself that I will continue to love me more and more. I will learn to be extremely selfish to protect myself. I will walk away and turn my back on anything that I know will not be essential to my growth and my future.
And I challenge you to take time to heal and trust that good will always come out of every situation.
Next weekend I get to see Oprah, I spent the holiday with beautiful friends! I was able to see the true color of people and God removed them from me and it makes my heart, soul, and being happy to know that HE protects me.
The following month, I’m booking a trip to the Caribbean and I’m going to continue to be patient with myself!
What will you do to heal? First you must remain calm and then you must sit still to figure things out!