I have over 5,000 pictures in my phone. Often I go through the pictures and marvel at my life. It’s kind of a way to remind me of how blessed I am. I have pictures of everything and they always seem to put a smile on my face.
I came across one of those Pinterest posts and I thought about my last few days. I have been extremely ungrateful. I have been in a funk because something didn’t happen that I wanted to happen. Despite me and everyone of us knowing we have no control over a persons action, we cannot change a persons mind, and we cannot always make compromises when it goes against what we stand for, we do. And when we do this, we fail at self-care.
When we become ungrateful and so focused on an outcome that we cannot control, we fail at taking care of ourselves. We almost, sort of… and sometimes forget to pray. We shed tears and play back conversations or even reread texts that serve no importance. We want to justify and find ways to make what we believe is important to the next person and sadly, if they are suppose to be in your life, they will already know who you are and help you self-care.
Often time we are receiving so many blessings; I just received a gift basket today, my book proof came out, great reviews from students, and even found someone to do my hair, but…. we can be ungrateful.
We become so fixated on what we don’t have like that spoiled kid lying on the floor in the grocery store sprawled out because she cannot get the candy she really wanted or the ice cream that she loved. BUT WHYYYYYYYYYYYY🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄
We must learn… self care is indeed important and that means that you, me, we, all of us must center our thoughts on the good versus those bad. Remember we cannot change anyone or anything, but we can look at the good in every situation….. even though it might not be what we envisioned…. remember we live in an imperfectly perfect world!
I have to be blessed because I receive so many messages, cards, phone calls, snail mail, and sincere love daily and I’m sure everyone else receives something that uplifts you, so embrace that… and while you are doing it, take time to self care; whether it’s walking away, crying, enjoying ice cream, kick boxing, going to a concert!This weekend I did it all and I must always remind the ungrateful twin (I’m a Gemini) that I can’t have everything I want… sometimes it might not be good or even ripe enough….It might not be right or just not as optimistic as you are….. sometimes I have this unreal optimism that a friend will not let me lose…. according to him “the universe knows when my aura is off.” And then those random messages start coming in…. you were heavy on my heart….😳… and packages of BIG twizzlers arrive❤️❤️❤️🥰🥰🥰 I’m loved!
And to fix it, I have to take care of me and close myself down….and as you feel your aura off, find what works for you….
I took myself to a concert, a soror took me out to eat (not knowing I was in my feelings), went to church, even saw Kirk Franklin, but it took me to sit back and look at how full my jar of thanks was for me to see that everything will be ok…. and that new journey…
So, I’m down for a moment to self- care a bit more and share how grateful I am….For me and all the greatness that comes with being in my shoes…
I pray you do the same!