Uncertainty or anxiety about ones self…
Unsure…not done in confidence …..
I’m neither of the above …. well I am kind of uncertain about what to do with my last name because it doesn’t belong to me…. hmmmmmmmm. And because of this …maybe I will create my own….
I find myself wondering what I would do when I get married again. No…. not getting married tomorrow, but eventually I’m claiming it. I’m never ruling that out because I know without a doubt that I am marriage material. Intelligent, fine as hell…(yup!!), a great sense of humor, somewhat together (whatever that means…) , a whole lot of other things that society smiles at us humans for having, and oh yeah… I desire it. If you heart so desires something I’ve read (and I’ve been told that the universe, God, whoever you believe in) it will make sure you get it.
This is the unfortunate task women have to think of… just one more extra thing to do…
What I’ve wondered is will I change my name again… will I drop all of those last names… Drewery, Davis, Vargas…. 🤷🏽♀️ and just go by O’SHEA?
Does it even matter? You know it does because this is what women have to deal with … we have to think about changing last names, and even whether it is worth it. I have most of my paperwork in my maiden name, but then I have cool things like a Congressional Record in my second married name. Oh what shall a girl to do??! And is this stuff that we should even worry about?
Well I did the other day. I went to do a craft and I had to decide what name I would add to my craft. Oh jeezzzz what is a girl to do … I’m asking again?? Do I put my maiden name or my sons last name (my first married name) or the last name that I’ve had for about five years now that I’ve been meaning to change but it’s so time consuming and ….I prefer to spend my time elsewhere versus calling this place and that company and sending this paper in to the mortgage company and of course having to pay for that passport that I just got.. and what about the cars?? Is it worth it? Does my last name define me? I thought so! I didn’t just think so, I was adamant about changing it, but now I just don’t know…I’m Kiera! I’m Kiera O’SHEA.
I still have the same social security number. I was born at the same location. I still have the same past. I still have the same chicken pox scar (I still remember having chicken pox in 1st grade… these kids are lucky they have vaccines for such stuff). I still have the same parents, the same sister, the same child, the same ….everything….
I’m overall the same person….
Welp… I learned new lessons…a lot of them…
This reminds me of other things that we think about that might not even serve much relevance to our life. We think so much about things. And it’s important to think things through, but sometimes we allow things to keep our center focus versus focusing on things that could assist us with bettering ourselves; hence, exercise or starting that business.
As you focus on your day today, tomorrow, and in the future, think about what’s important.